Trying to be reasonable

I'm trying to be reasonable. I'm trying to not be so wrapped up in my own pain that I don't see that of someone else. I'm trying to think the best and assume that the ph*arm*acist doesn't realize how she's hurt me. I'm trying not to have the attitude that I will go to work, discuss work, and let them find out my good news from FB or text messages. I'm trying really hard to not just stand up and scream "I AM DONE with you people!!!!" I'm trying to keep my chin up, and not cry, and hold it together.
I'm trying, but I'm not really succeeding.